I always dreamed that when I got married I would host dinners and cocktail parties and backyard barbecues. But in truth? I kind of suck at the actual doing it part. And the reasons are completely silly. I was reminded of this as I read Parisienne Farmgirl's post on this topic, and somewhat ashamed.
I tell myself, "Oh, my home is such a mess." or "I wouldn't know what to cook." And the reality is that yes, my home can get cluttered, and yes, sometimes it's hard to find meals that people would enjoy. And even worse, yes, I've had guests think my fare was too "fancy" or say I went to too much trouble. And my biggest cause of nerves comes from the fact that in our home we don't do seconds (unless it's something like a bowl of soup in the winter, and even then we usually don't), we serve small portions, and yes, I have had people give me odd looks over this.
But... I'm a homemaker. Part of my job is to make my home welcoming, a respite for my family and friends. I want to be that woman who can invite a friend over for a Sunday lunch or a quick cup of coffee with dessert. I want to stop being ashamed if I missed a tuft of dog hair in my sweeping. I want to stop being no perfectionistic to the point that I'm not welcoming.
So this week is being spent doing 2 things: pampering myself and cleaning my home enough that I can hopefully have a friend over for coffee this week or dinner this weekend. Pampering myself, because I've been go go go lately, and I look "tired" as people kindly say. The cleaning should be quick if I can remember why I want to do it and take breaks with some iced tea.
I figure that practicing hospitality with friends and acquaintances will be perfect so that I can properly welcome my husband home. After all, he's definitely the one I try hard to please the most!