I cannot thank you enough for your understanding and kind words yesterday. From comments to e-mails, they all helped to reassure me that this time is normal and that I have some amazing readers.
After some long consideration I have decided that I will continue to blog here, but that I won't be putting so much pressure on myself about content and frequency. I'll write about this life, maybe less, maybe more. I think I was trying to be the ideal me, which right now isn't happening.
I want this blog to be extremely authentic. I don't want people to drop in and think I live this life that is always rainbows and roses, because that is so untrue. I am in the middle of shaping the life I want and it's messy and it's beautiful and it takes time and mistakes.
Writing about life might mean more about diapers and baby things because that's what my life consists so much of now. It might mean more about my faith as we're currently exploring stepping away from the Catholic church, and that is terrifying for someone like me who likes things to stay the same. I want this blog to be able to help others, but I'm learning that the theme of the year is that I have to take care of me, and right now that means using writing as therapy.
Once again, thank you.
Well, good for you. I was a cradle Catholic for 42 years - 12 years of Catholic school, and 8 years of college and graduate school at a Jesuit university. I was baptized, confirmed and married in the Church.
ReplyDeleteI left the Church last year after attending a Mass at the Cathedral here in Baltimore and the now-Cardinal used it as an opportunity to preach politics from the pulpit.
For the first time in my life I was so angry I walked out of a Mass and haven't been back since.
Just saying I understand where you're coming from regarding the difficulty of leaving.
I was an Episcopalian my whole life, even being ordained and ministering as a priest for 20 years. I converted to the Orthodox Church 4 years ago and have wondered why I waited so long! Sometimes it takes years to find the perfect fit, and that is true of so many things in life :)
ReplyDeleteGood on you! Nora's arrival has been a big life change for you and G., it's only fitting that you need time to figure things out.
ReplyDeleteI converted to the Eastern Orthodox Church 22 years ago from the Lutheran Church. You may find the peace that I did.
ReplyDeleteHow wonderful that you're going to keep blogging! So glad that you're not going to delete your past posts, because I'm only about a third of the way through them.It's perfectly understandable that you're going through some changes after the birth of your precious Nora, and perfectly natural that you're feeling a little overwhelmed. Babies have a way of doing that to you. This is your blog; you're the boss. You get to decide what to post, and how often you want to do so. We're here because we like you, and we're interested in what you have to say.
ReplyDeleteI love you. You could post about rocks and I would still read it. I love you. That's all.
ReplyDeleteLife isn't easy add blogging on top of it and it is a circus. I myself could have written your previous post. I will support you know matter what you write about. Being true makes it all a little easier.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and kisses to you from California, Kate!
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy to hear you will continue to blog. You should also give yourself a break and maybe take a blog vacation, or decide to post once a week, or create theme days - whatever works for you. Life is not stagnant, and you have a lot of life to live! We're very curious about how you will incorporate these new changes in your life, and it is encouraging for your older sisters in the blogasphere to read your adventures (good and bad) from a fresh, articulate, poised perspective.
ReplyDelete