Thursday, October 29, 2009

Sunny Outlook

Yesterday was hard.  It started out like this photo, sunny, smiling, relaxed.  But, as many days have lately, it turned difficult quickly.  G and I are working on making our marriage a priority, asking ourselves "what can I do today to show the other I love them?"  Watching The Biggest Loser last night and watching Abby talk about her family, (she lost her husband, 5 year old daughter, and 1 month old son in a horrible car accident) reminded me that this life is not promised to me forever, it could be taken from me in a blink of an eye.  I need to tell the people I love that I love them.  I need to also love myself.  

I had G dig the scale out from the bathroom box last night.  I was ready.  I knew that my clothes were beginning to cause problems, that my hips seem to have disappeared (and shall not return until I whittle the waist down more) some of my favorite clothes are just too big.  So he pulled it out and weighed himself, making sure everything was working right.  I was nervous.  What if the scale didn't show what I was seeing in the mirror?  Would I care?  Would it be disappointing?  

Well color me surprised when I looked down and realized I don't even quite weigh 5 lbs more than G!  That I am officially more than 70 lbs lighter than I was at my heaviest, which was 4 years ago.  I am 45 lbs lighter than I was a year and a half ago!  That gave me the boost I needed.  I did a happy dance.  I am looking great, but it's more than that.  I am feeling great.  I did this, by telling myself not to throw up, by allowing myself to not get too full (it's easy, I eat about half of what G eats when we're out and that's my limit), by choosing to say no to certain foods that I know make me feel icky.  And by doing those changes, not only have I lost weight, but I'm healthier.  My heart is happy, because it's healthier.  

And I've noticed that I used to hate dresses and skirts, and lately you cannot get me out of them.  I am enjoying showing off my figure with more feminine touches.  I'm also enjoying my chest being smaller so I can wear v-necks without feeling indecent.  I'm leaning towards more modest, feminine clothing, and this makes it much easier.  

Now to tone.  Picking up the Shred (yes, I know I procrastinate, there have been more urgent errands that needed to be run first), and we'll see.  In the end, I don't really care.  I'm not doing this to look hot.  I'm doing this to be happy and healthy, to never again be ashamed of how I look.  And it's so crazy to me that simple changes have done it.  I weigh less now than I did when I met G at 13!!!

Have any of you been working on yourselves?  And ladies who mentioned they wanted to health up too, and were interested in the Shred, I will be keeping you posted.  


  1. Kalee - You look absolutely amazing! I love the whole outfit, and your ladylike appearance. I definitely want to join in on the shape up. Thanks for sharing your tips on how you did it.

  2. Oh goodness, what an amazing accomplishment! That is just awesome, and incredibly hard work, god for you. And we love the photo too, you look great in those colors!

    Thanks for popping in for a visit, and may your Friday be fab!

  3. Need to get back on a workout routine (oh cold weather, I blame you!).

    Love the yellow cardi :)

  4. Congrats girl!!! I'm so happy for you. I need to lose about 40lbs.

  5. Well you look fantastic! Good for you :)