Thursday, April 28, 2011

Love Part 2 (mildly lengthy, but worth it)

My dear friend Miss Tracy Leigh once told me that her parents explained the birds and the bees by saying, "When two people love each other very much they share a special hug."  She was scarred by this and afraid of hugging people for a long while out of fear of having a baby. This story never fails to amuse me, so I thought I would share.  :)

I have anticipated this post for weeks.  In fact there have been several drafts which are being all sort of smooshed together here. Please excuse me if this post jumps all over the place.  In a week I will be celebrating 4 years of marriage.  So short, and yet as G and I say, "It's an entire high school or college education.....and it sure has been an education!"  I love that we are in such a good place.  I love that I'm trusting my husband with my heart again, and that I'm learning to let go a bit.  I love that someday our children are going to see what love is supposed to mean so that they in turn learn to love well.

Married love is remarkable in the ability to share a lifetime of special hugs.  It's kind of a great perk of the job (and one that I am, ahem, currently missing).  And sometimes it has remarkable results.  An exhaustion that cannot be explained.  A feeling that niggles at the mind, but is faced with denial.  A moment of reckoning when you realize that the saying, "tell God your plans and watch him laugh" is more than true.
I am writing this on April 7 even though you won't be seeing this until much later.  I want to record what it is I'm feeling right now.  I'm in awe mainly.  Our own little homegrown expression of God's amazing ability to at points allow us to see the big picture.  The bulimia that most likely is the cause of the cyst.  The cyst that pumped my body full of progesterone as it dissipated acting like a inborn fertility drug.  A schedule that caused me to not be taking meds like I normally would.  All leading to:
Photo is from yesterday, April 27, 2011
That, my friends, is my baby.  And suddenly all my weight loss plans and my "I don't know if now's the right time" thoughts just disappeared and all I could think was, "You and I are going to have a wild ride."  For those who'd like the math, ma petite escargot is due around Thanksgiving.  They're estimating the 24th of November.  G will be home at the beginning of the third trimester---just in time for daily foot rubs and lots of him running up and down the stairs for me! 
These past weeks I imagine I've not been the best blogger.  For days I've just been in awe and sort of not sure what to write, and while I hope that didn't continue too horribly I'm sure there were many delays.  I hope that you can now understand why.  We're thrilled, and I have certainly never felt more beautiful.  I'm going to be attempting to not focus on our little snail, but occasionally as we go along show you how I take my style from normal to poppin'!  And I'm really hoping that by now I'm able to eat things other than fruit, cheez-its and pickles, so that we can discuss eating in a healthy but still delicious way."
I obviously wrote that a bit ago.  So you see, my dear readers I haven't been exactly running myself ragged.  It's just that growing a person is somewhat of an exhausting task.  And the only way I could think to mask it was to let everyone think I was simply taking on too much. (and avoid spilling the beans that I sleep all. the. time.)

Telling G was the most amazing moment.  His shock and happiness were so audible we were in complete heaven.  And while technically we're still not out of the highest risk period, we've hated keeping it quiet, and yesterday I got to witness the baby actually moving about, kicking it's little legs (I didn't even know they were all that active this early!).  I am currently 10 weeks along, and though I wanted to wait until the end of this first tri-mester, both G and I have been busting at the seams to tell the world our good news.  Right around Thanksgiving this year we'll become a family of three.

Our cup runneth over.  And if this baby isn't the best representation of our love, I'm not sure what is. 

32 comments:

  1. That is such wonderful news, my friend. I am very happy for you. Please take good care of yourself.
    xo, A

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  2. Congrataulations Kalee! I'm so happy for you :)

    xoxo Hermine

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  3. Congratulations! Wonderful news!

    When I was pregnant, the first trimester was so exhausting. I was so tired that standing in the shower to wash my hair and shave my legs was too much. I just sat down in the tub and let the water run over me. So, your level of exhaustion is very normal, and if you have the sort of life that affords you the opportunity to sleep and relax and take it easy every day, DO IT. I was a full-time grad student and also worked full time, and it was hard to be on the go all the time. So indulge.

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  4. Congrats. It is amazing to be pregnant there are tough days but it is all worth it. Perfect timing btw Ollie will be outgrowing all his littlest clothes right before your due ;)

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  5. Congratulations! All the best to you during this amazing time!

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  6. Omigoodness, I knew it! Reading your tweets and posts I was thinking, she so reminds me of how I was when I found out I was pregnant. Nothing specific, but it just seemed so.

    I am so thrilled for you and G. The first trimester IS tough, your body is making a little person so do rest, stay hydrated, walk a lot when you feel up to it. I can recall wanting NOTHING but fruit and hot and sour soup broth and pickles. In a couple weeks you will regain energy and appetite.

    Every woman is different, every woman's pregnancy, birth, and parenting choices are different. Do know I'm not too far away and would love to meet midway if you want to have some decaf tea, chat, I have a huge book library for pregnancy & babies and can also talk about non-baby stuff. And I promise to not touch the belly :)

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  7. Congratulations! So very happy for you both, or should I say three :-)

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  8. Congratulations! That's so exciting!

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  9. Kalee!!!!!! I can not contain my excitment for you!!! This is such wonderful news! I pray that your pregnacny be smooth, enjoyable and an experience to hang with the stars :)

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  10. Congratulations hon. I am so happy for you two!

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  11. Congratulations!!! I am so very happy for you. You are going to be a great mom.

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  12. oh wow! congrats to you! Im glad your hubby will be back in time to help you through the end of your pregnancy and see the baby be born. Take care of yourself Mommy :)

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  13. Congratulations! What wonderful news! Glad G will be home in time to share in the pregnancy and the birth (and caring for mommy-to-be!). Praying for health for mother and child.

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  14. Kalee, that is fantastic news! I'm very happy for you and your husband. Take good care of yourself! Bess

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  15. Conratulations, Kalee!! You really need to get those cinnamon rolls perfected now!

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  16. Kalee! What awesome news!!!! So excited for you and G!! Yes, how I wish I was in the east coast too:)

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  17. How wonderful! Many blessings to you!

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  18. Oh my god! I had no idea that was where this post was going!! Even when I saw the sonogram pic, I was still all, huh, what? Wow, what a happy, unexpected surprise, especially after your post(s?) about your difficulties conceiving. So amazed and happy for you. Take good care!

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  19. Delurking to say sincere congratulations! :)

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  20. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I am SCREAMING in happiness for you! What absolutely, astonishingly, completely WONDERFUL NEWS!!!!!!!!!

    AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

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  21. I'm a fairly new reader thrilled to be coming in at a very exciting time. Congratulations to you both!

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  22. Congratulations to you both! That's wonderful news!!

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  23. Congratulations!! Your little one is very lucky to ha e parents like you and G. Look after yourself and your little escargot!
    J

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  24. I'm due Thanksgiving day! We'll have babies days apart! So happy for you!

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  25. I love how you said growing a person is hard work. Yes it is. And though I've had FIVE children now, I still forget that! When my body tells me to slow, I say "no". Mainly out of guilt because I feel like there are things expected of me as a wife and mother. So, when I am pregnant, I struggle with resting.

    Someday I'll learn! (Maybe).

    Congrat's again my friend. I am tickled pink for you! :)

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  26. I haven't read your blog for a day or two so am surprised and delighted to see this!!! Congratulations to you and G. - take care of yourself!

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  27. I know I already told you this, but I read this post again today and felt the need to comment! I can not put into words how excited I am for you! I am actually most excited for your child. How amazing to get to be a part of such a neat family! You and G are in for a GREAT adventure...but you already know that! Gosh Kalee, I just love you! Oh, and hugging people for too long still freaks me out a little. That dang book damaged me for life I tell ya!! :)

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  28. Oh wow oh WOW! I fall a little behind on blog reading and LOOK what I miss! Congratulations!!!! Very very exciting. :)

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  29. Congratulations. You will both be the best and most loving (and fun!) parents a baby could have.

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  30. Thank you everyone! It's great to have this little lovely supportive community!

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