Up In The Air

In 2 months we'll be back in our hometown visiting family and friends. Two months. Kinda freaks me out, if I'm honest. It's been over a year since I've seen my mom, almost a year since I've seen my baby brother, and over 2 years since I or Garret have seen anyone else. Which makes it where things are going to be crazy busy when we do go home. We have family and friends to see (listen up people, if you have any events you want us at, let me know....I am gonna make a schedule for us!), a car to buy (we're thinking of getting a Honda Civic.....anyone have an opinion on them?), stuff to pack up, dogs to deal with. It's going to be a roller coaster, the time will fly by I am sure.

Two months and my life is going to change dramatically. We're desperately hoping for a day job (and plan on fighting for one if at first it's shift work). We'll find out in August if G has made Staff Sergeant. We'll be moving from sheep country to a bigger city (which I am whoa thrilled about!). And we'll be eventually starting our family.

Which is where we are at now. Stuck. Trying to decide when the best time for us to start a family would be. We both want a baby now, but there are a lot of factors playing into our decision. My weight loss is one. I kinda plateaued, and now am working harder to lose more and be healthier (if I could only quit making yummy french bread, that would help). And I am loving being able to run again.

We've also been told about all the amazing things there are to do in Baltimore, and how much fun we are going to have. Which leaves us with the question, will we be able to do all those fun things with a baby? If we lived near family we would be able to work out some nights to have them babysit so we could go out. But moving to a new city, having to start over with new friends, I think unless we really hit it off with some people, I might be too terrified to leave the baby with anyone. New mom thing I guess.

The problem is it's breaking both our hearts. It's a huge decision, and both sides have appeal. G works a crazy schedule which oftentimes leaves us exhausted or running errands when he is home, so as much as the blog constitutes our outings, we've lost a little bit of the romantic time together. We were looking forward to having a more normal schedule to plan some things like taking a cooking class together. On the other hand, we're as ready as we'll ever be to start our family and move from the 2 of us to a little family of 3. And if G doesn't become a Daddy in the next year and a half I think I will seriously have to watch that he doesn't try to adopt a child on the sly and bring them home like a lost puppy. Seriously, he's a sucker for babies!

So that's what's going on here in our household. So many emotions. Excitement, confusion, anxiousness, and hope. Yes, we're looking to the future with hope.