Monday, August 31, 2009

So Soon...

I cannot believe that in less than 24 hours we will be headed on our way to Maryland. Seriously. I'm sitting at my grandmama's home, surrounded by things that need to be packed. Coffee is percolating on the stove. And I feel so drained. Exhausted.

I am excited and terrified of this move. Let's be honest, as much as I loved England, it wasn't the best time in my life. G and I fought because it sometimes felt like he was always gone and he had to break his clock watching habit. I had difficulties making any good, non-crazy friends. And I guess I have this deep worry that Maryland will be the same. I apologize for the posts lately being downers, and I hate to complain. I just feel overwhelmed with everything right now.

We've never taken a road trip. Never said, we have time, let's just drive and see what we see. But that's what we're doing. Due to a very unfortunate situation with the base not having rooms that you can have pets in (England did, and they didn't have anything, go figure) the dogs will be staying with my parents a wee bit longer. So we can stop at a diner, converse with a trucker about his travels and order a lot of coffee. We can drive on the side of the road and stand in awe at the sunrise. We can wave hello to the beginning of a new life for us.

So yes, I'm scared of the what ifs. But I am also dancing on the inside thrilled for a new start. I'm trying to stay positive and say we're not moving somewhere strange, we're moving home. Hope Maryland's ready for us!

5 comments:

  1. Sorry that you can't take the dogs right now, but it will make things easier for you. We will miss you, but envy you the adventure. Go with God. We love you.

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  2. With all the anxiety in you I pray that you will have peace and all will go well with your travels. Keep your head up high and march right in your new adventure!

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  3. It will be so great - you're right, you're going home! Here's hoping for a speedy and painless move :-)

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  4. Good luck! I can't wait to hear how it is once you get there and semi settled. :)

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